Me and my own Feeling!!

Soul Seaching....

Today, the O-level chinese result was given out. There was a talk before it was given. 100% pass for malay but not chinese when the table is show , I saw 5NA ,A1 to F9 , it was shocking... I manage to see the F9 number who got that was 2...

I felt nothing. No feeling was made like sad , happy or even angry. Slowly everyone get their turn to get their result . Suddenly , I felt my heart beat very loud for a slip second when I squated down and around me was jian yang , xiang liang , wee liang and yong sheng.Soon it my turn, and i got a 9 and p .

OKOK... I went back for poa class until it time to go home.

I reached home feeling very tired and started to lay on the bed.Soon I fell asleep.
In my dream , it was blank and dark....Then the place changed and I was in an emply School hall.Four people started to appare around me one by one : Front ,Back ,Left ,Right. They all looked like me .

Left me1 appared first . He looked like me which what I really want to be like and what i think that I looked like. He crying and then he ran away. I asked me1 "Why are you crying?" He said "I don't know... Isn't you thinking of crying?"

Right me2 gave a loud laugh that made me turn to him . I saw him which looked like opposite of me. I asked " Why you laugh?" He said " Why shouldn't I? I do know I will fail , boys don't cry and if I do people looked down on me..."Acting cool...

After me2 was done , I heard a loud crying from the back ,me3. It was a kid when I was young .He looked very playful but he was crying. Soon he stoped and smiled...I asked " Why you stopped and smile?" he reply" Although I don't have any thing that I owned but I can do what I can to owned."

Lastly ,me4 looked like me ,no different but crying... I watched him to see if he stopped and he laugh or smile . Suddenly my eyes get wet and my heart beat like his. I do not know why . Soon I woke up ,tears came down non-stopped so I went to the bath room . I felt very upset ...

I asked myself why today my dream is this and why there 4 of me...
who is me1 playing as:
who is me2 playing as:
who is me3 playing as:
who is me4 playing as: