IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE LAST TIME I POST IN THIS BLOG....
Well things are getting worst or IT IS JUST ME ...! Oh well, the world that i see is a fuck up one! Reality is something that hard to face. Feeling bad, lonely and bored. friend got new friend and dump the old friend. bored!!! days happen like a circle, with everyday the same thing happen over and over again! even my dream i don't know is it a dream or reality.
This week is my exam week. My result was not very good and effect that i gave was DARN BAD. I got no mood to study.i'm kind of looking forward to my holiday but....
Next week , i am going back to work but whenever i thought of it, i hurt and tiring! i want to quit and enjoy freedom and fun. However, even i got my holiday and quit my part-time work, what can i do? stay at home and rot!
'find friends and go out?' well, i want to but there a lot problems! 1st; wake up late, end up no need to go ... 2nd: where to go? sg is boring place and it is not cheap. 3rd: what to do??? there is nothing to do. 4th: who to call? all are busy lazy and many others more...
Arghhhh..... fuck my life ! As people grow up, things get bored! my life is suck... what my future will be like ?
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
feeling of mine.
It is now 3june of 2011, the days in rp was not very good as i want it to be. i'm depressed, very disappointed, feeling stupid, lonely and more importantly felt useless. It is getting bad to worst. In school, i cannot seen to forced in class and unable to understand. I really want to change myself and get everyone to notice me but it is hard. I love to have fun but i fear other felt bad. I think that i stuck in the past and can never move forward to realise something important frist but i really don't know what is it.
I think i'm draff apart fro my best friends. i think we are no longer close because i got lot of problems. many things about me is causing it like been quiet, shy, unhyper, boring, stupid, weak. i don't know what i should do...cry does ont help but only release the holding back of my tears of sadness
there are times i thought of stupid things, like getting bang by car,or cut myself so that i forget everything but i'm in fear of pain and death then told myself to see bright side or tml hopefully will be another new day . however these are just lies to myself. i wish to run away from these but it keep popping in front of me. So i took on part-time job , but it was very tiring as i need to stand and greet too as well as stress cause i need to remember where the stuff at. i wish to work with my bro but we got spit up like always. it does make me upset but i tell myself that one day still have to face these myself. so it's a test. i don't know how long am i going to fool or lie to myself and how long i my fake act last in front of everyone.
I think i'm draff apart fro my best friends. i think we are no longer close because i got lot of problems. many things about me is causing it like been quiet, shy, unhyper, boring, stupid, weak. i don't know what i should do...cry does ont help but only release the holding back of my tears of sadness
there are times i thought of stupid things, like getting bang by car,or cut myself so that i forget everything but i'm in fear of pain and death then told myself to see bright side or tml hopefully will be another new day . however these are just lies to myself. i wish to run away from these but it keep popping in front of me. So i took on part-time job , but it was very tiring as i need to stand and greet too as well as stress cause i need to remember where the stuff at. i wish to work with my bro but we got spit up like always. it does make me upset but i tell myself that one day still have to face these myself. so it's a test. i don't know how long am i going to fool or lie to myself and how long i my fake act last in front of everyone.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Got into.....
Dear TAN WEI NENG (ID*) , |
We are pleased to inform you that you have been offered [3 Yrs] RP - Biomedical Sciences, R143 at Republic Polytechnic. |
The academic term of Republic Polytechnic for AY2011/2012 will commence on 18 April 2011. Successful final semester ITE applicants will be receiving their enrolment pack via the email account registered in the JPAE-ITE application by 4 April 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
y... it all ur fault
i'm tired... i wan to cry ... i wan to scream as well ... since young , it been like this and don't know
i at home trying not to give everyone trouble and spend less , save money , try not let worry parent but he just do whatever he wan .... i don't know i can keep this selfless mood long sia .fucking ass hole...
FINAL grades and gpa!
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| Plan | Current | Cumulative |
|---|---|---|
| Higher National ITE Certificate in Biotechnology | 2.286 | 2.576 |
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
nEW yEAR !
Happy New Year.... :)
2010 is here... Another year have pass and it been so long i wrote anything here. Sry i'm been lazy , stress , and many more...haiz life is hard indeed .After my ia , life in sch really made me missed my ia place , friends and food. However, these days i think i'm having depression for no reason or maybe because of friends. ahhhhrgggghh i just don't know or even understand myself. i'm worried a lot, haiz...like sometime i think for bro, dey, i think there a wall between us ,then for another friend ,eth, she act weird like kind of drunk but then again i know she very sad.Another friend ,ben , kind of like avoid us and kind of emo all the time and a girl ,eun, she like having hard times keeping her close friends closed and keep never go sch. I guess everyone are rushing to find the right gf/bf ... Now i'm very lonely and sad, i wish everyone are close like old time guess it hard since everyone growing and school are almost to the end. i don't know will we still be friends
i'm really hope this year would be better. 2011
2010 is here... Another year have pass and it been so long i wrote anything here. Sry i'm been lazy , stress , and many more...haiz life is hard indeed .After my ia , life in sch really made me missed my ia place , friends and food. However, these days i think i'm having depression for no reason or maybe because of friends. ahhhhrgggghh i just don't know or even understand myself. i'm worried a lot, haiz...like sometime i think for bro, dey, i think there a wall between us ,then for another friend ,eth, she act weird like kind of drunk but then again i know she very sad.Another friend ,ben , kind of like avoid us and kind of emo all the time and a girl ,eun, she like having hard times keeping her close friends closed and keep never go sch. I guess everyone are rushing to find the right gf/bf ... Now i'm very lonely and sad, i wish everyone are close like old time guess it hard since everyone growing and school are almost to the end. i don't know will we still be friends
i'm really hope this year would be better. 2011
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Blog Updating....
Blog Update...
It been many many many months since the last time i wrote in here...
My Ia had just ended one week ago. Before it end i was really thinking should i do part time there for one month , but i lose my holiday... so i decided to do part-time for 2 weeks and the rest of the weeks is HOLIDAY! I really enjoyed my times in my ia place! Though that i really hate the bad times happen but i really had lot of fun happy , joking , childish times ... In one more week i'll be leaving my ia and enjoy my holiday but i think it'll be boring, no fun, sian but relaxing ... (will be missing everyone :( )
First week of my part-time , new ia student from from NY.poly. , 20yo chinese boy from malaysia, will be here for 6 month so around feb . He will be take over my works. He seem very quiet , insecured... i tried to talk to him to let him feel more of himself but i don't know what to talk... (really suck ... )I think is the way i act and teach ... (i don't really know how to teach ...sry!) hope he try his best to blande in . :)
It been many many many months since the last time i wrote in here...
My Ia had just ended one week ago. Before it end i was really thinking should i do part time there for one month , but i lose my holiday... so i decided to do part-time for 2 weeks and the rest of the weeks is HOLIDAY! I really enjoyed my times in my ia place! Though that i really hate the bad times happen but i really had lot of fun happy , joking , childish times ... In one more week i'll be leaving my ia and enjoy my holiday but i think it'll be boring, no fun, sian but relaxing ... (will be missing everyone :( )
First week of my part-time , new ia student from from NY.poly. , 20yo chinese boy from malaysia, will be here for 6 month so around feb . He will be take over my works. He seem very quiet , insecured... i tried to talk to him to let him feel more of himself but i don't know what to talk... (really suck ... )I think is the way i act and teach ... (i don't really know how to teach ...sry!) hope he try his best to blande in . :)
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